yesterday my sister called and told me that my mom was admitted to the hospital.i rushed to the hospital as soon as i found out.thank god wanie offered to send me to the hospital.my mom complained earlier that she had a stomach ache and she was having a fever.and everytime she eats,she will throw up.
the doctor said she had uncontrollable diabetes.the machine couldnt even read her sugar level because it was too high.she looked terribly sick and weak and she was shivering but her temperature was high.she couldnt even speak.i just couldnt stand looking at my mum.i can see her struggling while going through the pain.it was just too sad to look at her that way.i wish i could switch places with her.
i knew she had diabetes before but she kept reassuring us that it's under control.we didnt know she was really really sick.i dont know if she was trying to hide it from us or what because she kept insisting us not to send her to the hospital.or maybe it was just me.maybe i dont want to face the reality because im scared.
at this point,it was a reality check for me.life is not a bed of roses and we're not living in a lala land.im always busy thinking about my assignments,my relationship with my boyfriend and other nitty gritty stuff but i wasnt concern about bigger things.that just hit me.
its really really hard for me to go through all this and with all the assignments piling.i have to try not to neglect my studies because that matters her the most.she was the most excited when she found out i did good on my exam papers.she sacrificed a lot for me so that i can continue my studies.
rigt now,she's doing better but just now the doctor said she got a blood infection.she spoke to me before i go back to cyberjaya.she asked me if i skipped classes to visit her.she even wished good luck for tomorrow's islamic studies quiz.i pray to God that she'll be in good condition and i hope her health will improve.
to those who read this blog,i hope you can pray for my mom's health.and thank you for my friends for their supports.i really do appreciate it.